Sorry for the last entry. It was my lowest moment. I’m still a bit depressed about it but I’m out of that bad funk. I have decided to try and go gluten-free with my food. It is not going to be easy – not by a long shot. However, I already got a few gluten-free things to eat as snacks and I’m liking them so maybe it won’t be all bad. I think I won’t miss the foods I have been eating every day if my health is much better from it. I also bought a cook book from the woman who owns the site Against all Grain. I’m going to make some of her dishes, they look good. Also, I went ahead and started to do what that locum said, which was to drink a tablespoon of olive oil three times a day. I add lemon juice to it to add a natural stimulant and to mask the taste a bit. I don’t know if it will help me but I’m ready to try it all. Wish me luck!
Now, on to the point of this post – Website Changes. Kills With Cake cosplay group is retiring, we had a small issue with one of the members. No, we did not fight but she can no longer do the cosplay. It was a sad moment and we all cried about it. She is going to continue to help out in anyway she can. I can’t say what happened for her privacy. I just had to take all the stuff down that had her in it.
I’m at my wits end. I would cry non-stop except that I just don’t have the energy. Every now and then, the frustration really gets me and I let out a few tears. Three times… three miserable times! I have been admitted into the hospital in less than a year. The first time was really rough, I went through major surgery, my surgeon went through my small bowl three times, I was in the hospital for two weeks… but I thought I was cured. For 7-8 months I felt wonderful! I had energy I was able to go to the bathroom like normal. Life was feeling great, I had no idea what being without pain was like!
Using a new layout already, as you can see. I didn’t like the way the other one messed up my back-end look. This one is more fluid. I really need to stop being lazy and start making my own layouts. I’m still slowly working on Panikku, though not much more progress has been made. A lot of the reason is because of my health. I haven’t had the energy to come home and get on the computer after working all day. I’m also working on changing the look of KillsWithCake so that doesn’t help my progress on other things.
Saw my doctor for my Hospital Follow Up. He put me at the end of the day so he could spend some time trying to figure out the next move. We went through a list of things we have already done and things we have yet to do. He wants to try a few more things before resorting to more surgery, which is fine with me. I don’t want to have to go back into surgery or the hospital for that matter.
The rest of this post is very medical about the colon so if that kind of stuff bothers you, turn around now.